Wait, wait, wait. Life is full of waiting. Something I definitely need improvement doing. I am impatient. Seriously, impatient. I want things now! LOL Oh my gosh, can we say cray cray?! But thankfully, My God is patient, he is merciful, he is able. He isn’t in the rush I am in or in the rush of the world. No, my God patiently waits to execute his perfect plan for our lives.
“I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits, and in his word I put my hope.” – Psalm 130:5
Instant gratification is something I crave yet something that is not necessarily familiar in my world. See, everything I want has come with a wait. Hard waits, painful waits, sacrificial waits, just waiting. My education, my marriage, my career, my relationship with God and my future of expanding our family. God’s answers don’t always seem to be “no” for me but they do seem to be “wait my child, I have better in store for you.” Hmph! Impatiently waiting on the works of the Lord can be so frustrating but so beautiful. I didn’t know God had better in store for me than my original plan! I’m growing more and more everyday into the woman of God that He designed me to be and waiting isn’t as frustrating as it once was. It makes me laugh sometimes at how He always performs and shows out. Now, waiting is more filled with anticipation and service, like a kid staying up all night waiting to open Christmas Gifts. I am waiting for the miraculous only He can do.
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.” – Ecclesiastes 3:11
Reading more on the story of Abraham and Sarah I still find solace, peace and hope. I mean, come on, 100 years old and barren and God still delivers his promises?! W.O.W Amazing if I don’t say so myself. God always keeps his word, but it’s always on His timing. Sometimes God’s deliverance and work in and through our lives is so breathtaking I can barely contain it and comprehend the magnitude of the blessings. But then I realize the waiting I have done, the service I have done, the struggles, the sacrifices, it hasn’t been in vain. Beauty from the ashes. Life from death. My waiting is rewarded.
I have been so guilty of thinking “it’s too late” “I’m too old” “God is not listening to me” “God is saying no” all because of the delay of God’s work. When we are in the darkest hour God’s works are the hardest to see and trusting God to take care of all of our needs is the toughest thing to imagine doing. By being impatient we push forward trying to handle our lives ourselves and we doubt God. His capabilities are endless and never change but He has a set time for everything to be carried out. I’m waiting on you Lord, but it’s not easy. He knows what we are feeling and what we are going through.
It took us 5 ½ years before we married, such a long wait, It took me almost 10 years to get my Bachelor’s degree, it took me over 10 years to build my professional career, it’s been almost 8 years of trying to have a baby, it’s been five years of waiting to pursue entrepreneurship and it’s been my entire life to begin building my relationship with God. That’s a lot of numbers and a lot of waiting. But then I realize as I write this that God has been waiting on me! He has been waiting on me to come to him, kneel at his feet and give my life wholeheartedly to him. God has been waiting on me to relinquish the “control” of my life completely over to Him so He can show His power in my life. But oh the marvelous works of God have proved my waiting on his delay of fulfillment has been gloriously rewarded with the precious blessings in my life.
God specializes in the impossible. The impossible things I cannot work out I gladly give to God. I learn to sit in His presence with my courage, faith and hope in Him who does exceedingly and abundantly more than our human minds can ever imagine. There is not one thing in my life I can do without or better than God. So, why don’t I just be the co-pilot and wait to see what God does in my life? Like Sarah & Abraham we will wait on the promises of the Lord and be confident that He knows the desires of our hearts.
I’m still impatient, but through the God’s word I learn to praise, worship and work while I am waiting on him. It’s not easy but I know waiting for Him is more than worth it.
“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” – Philippians 4:6-7