Worn Out & Weary

God has given you a gift of time. Your time. Your choice. Your approach. – Lysa Terkeurst

I’m sure we can all relate in some way, I am weary because _______… (fill in the blank)

As I continue to grow in my relationship with God and mature as a woman I realize that there are times I grow weary. Many times I am weary and worn out. Work, Life, Marriage, Schedules, Commitments, Planning, it can all make you just throw yourself in a chair and say “God, don’t you know I am weary?!” Which is a joke in itself, of course God knows you’re weary! He built us to grow weary, by creation we are destined to grow weary. Because He wants us to come to Him when we are weary, renew our strength in Him. “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” – Matthew 11:28

Do you know where to go when you’re worn out?

I’m going to have a spa day, take a vacation, go to a retreat, spend time with friends, sleep, take a day off of work, I can do _______ to recover from being worn out. All of those things may give us temporary relaxation and refreshing but nothing sustains a worn out soul like sitting with God. I am so convicted by the story of Martha and Mary, sisters, who saw things very differently. I am guilty of being Martha more than I would like to admit. Always being distracted with “much serving & preparation”, I am a woman on the go with not enough hours in the day. Learning to make time to sit with the Lord and listen, drown out the distractions and choosing the good portion God has for me. I pray to be more like Mary, comfortable with just sitting.

dis·trac·tion –  a thing that prevents someone from giving full attention to something else.

Who am I to lie and say that I haven’t been distracted from God by everything under the sun?! Distracted from His calling on my infertility journey by charting, shots, surgeries, recoveries, losses, planning, procedures, doctor’s visits, much working and no listening. Distracted in my marriage by life’s demands taking me away from the apex God is deserving of in our marriage. Distracted from personal relationship with the only One who can work the impossible to possible by alarm clocks, running late, exhaustion, you name it. I’m worried about so many things, accomplishing everything on my list, pleasing everyone, hitting all my target deadlines and just plain distracted.  God is changing my heart, he is changing my life, clearing out the distractions and the overzealous, unintentional way I devote and spend my time. Making room for what is most important.

“Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” – Luke 10:41-42

I am learning to balance out the push and pull of life, instead of just catching everything “on the go” like fast food, I am aiming for enough, rather than too much. Intentional & purposeful choices. Spreading myself thin and forgetting the gifts given to me are not pleasing to the Lord or pleasing to myself. “To whom much is given, much will be required.” I am learning to make time to sit and listen, spring clean the unnecessary and make room for the overflow of blessings He says are mine.

“We have to start with a number – 168. This is the number of hours God entrust me with each week. No more. No less. How we treat those hours will be very telling in whether or not we’ll ever become fearless.” – Lysa Terkeurst

Putting a number on it really brings some reality to my mind, 168 hours a week; what’s that soul thing for you, that God-honoring thing that keeps slipping away because there’s been no time to set aside and actually start? Instead of being weary and worn out, stop & sit with Him, make time to be with the One who can renew your strength so that you can soar on wings like eagles and run and not grow weary. He is never weary. Your choice.

“Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.” – Isaiah 40:28

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